~Christmasu~

Sob what a poor poor Christmas this year (yes, you're going to hear the word "poor" very frequently from me nowadays). Since i have plenty of time at home i decided let's make my room a lil more festive for the coming Christmas.

(A lil deco using my old christmas stuff)

Me and Dancing

I was exhausted when i get home late today. But after i found out what had happened, i have to say something. This is not an angry article nor it is a cover-up, it is just me trying to tell you about dancing. A dear hobby of mine.

To briefly explain the situation, there are some of our society members that has misunderstood what our dance group is representing and are doubtful in what we have got to offer. The first thought that hit me was: Since when dancing is wrong? I do not know in this particular event if the blame was put on the dancers, activity or dance itself. It just doesn't make sense to me, do you? To be frank i was pissed off at first, but to understand the potential of seriousness with this miscommunication, i want to set the record straight.

I am a dancer from Danzity group and i have been with the group since June 2008. Albeit it doesn't seem like a long period i can tell you what i see in this group. We have students of different ages coming to dance practice on time. Parents sending theirs kids to the dance class or even joining themselves. Meetings are conducted frequently to discuss the well being of the group so as for the activities that we conduct. Dancers spend hours of time in the studio for performances (charity purpose or vice versa), i don't see a problem here. Let's talk about the dance and dancers, for example, breakdance. B-boys do not born to know how to do the breakdance. All the back flip or head-spin skill don't just come naturally. They require tons of hardwork. To improve you need to be focus, determined and self-discipline, through their hobby dancers pick up qualities that benefits for a life time, what's wrong with that?


Maybe i shall put it in a much simpler way. We are a group of individual that love dancing and are driven by this passion to improve ourselves. We learn to have fun, to express our feelings through dances and make friends that shares the same hobby. We consider ourselves as athletes and are just about the same with everyone else in sports. We treat our life seriously and work hard to achieve our goal. Nothing is bad about my hobby. Something that is so simple has been complicated in so many ways, why?

The committee and dancers had put in much effort to pull off the activity, with aims (quoted from idance blogspot):

The aim of all our activities remains unchanged ...that is to

· To introduce and promote street dancing as a healthy alternative pastime

to the youth of Penang
· To counter negative vices such as loafing (lepak culture), vandalism,

illegal racing (‘mat rempit’), drug and alcohol abuse
· To be exemplary youth who make a difference in society

that lead a healthy lifestyle.

With prayer our intention shall not be misunderstood again.

Fresco Night Out

Hey to you all out there that miss me tonight....or not. (Not that i really care) Really glad that i brought Fresco(my dog) out for a walk just now cause he seriously need some exercise. Honestly i think my mum thinks that she's feeding a pig instead of a poodle so ended up now we have an obese dog. Poor thing is thrilled the moment he gets into Kean's car, panting heavily out of excitement. In fact, he hasn't been out for quite some times, that's because he's dirty and smelly, which of course is because the owner is too lazy to give him a bath. *grinz*

When we arrive at Kean's house the first thing he saw was Alexis (Kean's Jack Russell), the 2 months old "terrorist" that defeated him last time. He ran towards her not to declare war but to start smelling her butt...eh hmmm Fresco is a big boy now...*wolf wolf!* Alexis was confused for a moment and start biting him on the neck when she realize what he's doing. Fresco seems like he felt nothing, i guess all thanks to the obesity. After dinner we took him and Alexis for a stroll outside the house, boy is he excited, this time i even took off his leash just so he can run freely.

We stopped by aunty Laura's house for some cakes and coffee later at night, she has two poodle of her own, mum Tasha and daugther Dutches. The previous time Fresco meeting with Tasha and Dutches was not very pleasant as they were too excited to have a male guest at home, so were this time. They were smelling Fresco's butt and chasing him everywhere, Fresco seems pretty scared. Funny. At one point Tasha the mother started "humping" Fresco...erm i guess she don't know what she's doing...haha funny shit to watch.

Finally we decided to leave, Fresco seems like he can't wait to get home and have a good rest. However by the time we reach home he wants to play the fetch and give game again. *faint* Well, at least he have his exercise today. =)

Could this be it ?

I made a decision recently about my life. Something bold (some say reckless) and something big. I have just resigned from my position as an Application Developer in Intel, which has a satisfying salary and a promising future. Instead, i will take myself out of the comfort zone to pursue, if i shall figure out, my purpose for life.

"This is your life, are you who you want to be?" - Switchfoot

I am actually panicking. Quiting my job without securing anything beforehand is risky. As you all know i am not much of a saving person, so literally i'll be starting all from scratch. Luckily, i have all the support that i need. Friends are worry but tried their very best to stay positive and advice. Uncle Kean is making sure i know what i am doing and put those thoughts into actions. Thanks, *hugs*

What important now is to find a direction. My mind had set myself free, the world is suddenly full of opportunities and hope, unlimited creativity is waiting to be discovered. My soon-to-be freedom is the ticket for me to do anything that i have decided to do. I am the key to success in this mission of life, yes i believe your life is to figure out who you are and what you is your purpose on earth. Let's not waste any moment in our life and be who we want to be.

A song that inspired me and might work the same for you:

THIS IS YOUR LIFE - SWITCHFOOT

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead

Yesterday is a promise that you’ve broken

Don’t close your eyes, don’t close your eyes

This is your life and today is all you’ve got now

Yeah, and today is all you’ll ever have

Don’t close your eyes Don’t close your eyes

This is your life, are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be

This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be

When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Yesterday is a kid in the corner

Yesterday is dead and over

This is your life, are you who you want to be

This is your life, are you who you want to be

This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be

When the world was younger and you had everything to lose

Don’t close your eyes Don’t close your eyes

Don’t close your eyes Don’t close your eyes

This is your life are you who you want to be x4

This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be

When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose

Me and books

I love my books.

I love them although i might not have finish reading them.

I love holding them and smell that scent only book has.

I love pictures inside the books that gives a better vision of the words.

I love that Audrey Hepburn book that has lotsa picture of her.

I love O's Guide To Life just because is Oprah that i love.

I love my fashion magazines the mix and match the black and the yellow

My bleoved books i love you and i defintely need to get you a nice home soon.

Self-Discipline

Finally i have some hint on what is going on with me. I hope i can discover more and identify the root cause. The shortest that best describe myself lately : LAZY! What a loser. Stop being a loser.

It has been like what? 4 months plus since i work in this new position? And yet, i am still where i were 4 months ago. I suck in my production support, i do not know the difference and process of WM, WM II, WM Lite and WM 2.2, i have no idea what is ABAP...etc etc. I can tell that i am a loser in my teammates' eyes, my manager would agree that i am an useless employee. This is not how i want to potray myself to others. Loser loser loser. Tell you what i have just done. Three of my colleagues are having project implementation for the past two weeks so is only left Amit and i in our cubicles. I took this "advantage", not to focus on work, but to watch TVB series. Brilliant. Classic. This can be such a good time for me to study more and pick up, but instead, what have i done? Nothing.
Decided to think about it on my way to Kean's house after work. I started to see the pattern of my behavior.

1. Procrastination (on assignments dead line and issues)
2. Lack of initiative
3. Lack of self-discipline

I think the above can sum up my whole situation.
I need some principles and self-discipline. Rules that me myself must follow, with determination. Looking into his eyes just now i realize that i have had what i wanted in my life and it's my call to hold on to it. I love him, i love my life.
Just do it.

YOU make a change on ME

Hmmm how do i write this without feeding in to your ego? Hehe.



The days are still tough, just the difference is, the big difference is, i have you. It doesn't matter what obstacles or pressure one has, just as long as the moral support is there. A source of motivation, the reason to hang in there. I am forgetful (i'm sure you know that now *wink*), but the time that you have spent on guiding me through work and life, i will not only remember that but to practise it as well.

I love you.



The last thing i want to admit but have no choice but to do so.....you are a nice guy. =) *Hugs

You always make me smile

You cover the blanket for me

You explain stuff that i don't understand pateintly

You concern about my safety

You concern about my health

You make my hands warm



I am sure there is more of you that i can discover in the future, i would love to baby. Thanks for making a change in my life.