SHE

She went for a stroll in the car. Speed through the winding road regardless the low petrol indicator. She was making clumsy turning through each corner as it has been a while since the notorious bad mood strikes.

Yes she only comes here when everything feels wrong again.

It is her believe that the more you fear about something the closer you should get to it.

Face the fear they say.....my ass.

The same CD the same track

Eyes were locked to the front but sees the past. Only when the car gets too near to the rock beside the road her mind came back and tilt the steering. Close call.

Memory flashes, not really in sequence, more like bits and pieces of faces and emotions..and the teary eyes. Suddenly she feel sick maybe vomit like that very night when she said goodbye.

Goodbye.

It's time to throw away that bloody The Script CD and get maybe...Lykke Li instead.

Sucking it up

Just get off from Skype with Kaysen. We argued for a while about dance as usual...then we move on to mundane things in life. Not much update but i'm glad i have someone to practice my english with. *well...*

Don't feel like sleeping yet so i read his blog. There was this short story he wrote that has an ending that touches my heart,

"Sometimes the world has a very mean way of bringing two people together. As one lives on with their life uninterrupted, the other suffers in silent."

You know what, soon you will know it's not worth the grief for someone who doesn't even bother.

Pray

I want to do a million things,

Read my books.

Edit photos.

Pray for the Japan earthquake victims.

I am vulnerable to any news on the earthquake, i cried everytime i watch the news or read an article about it. I hope everyone is safe.

Let's pray, in my own way.

Enabling

I am friendly by nature. Don't abuse that, don't.

I WILL BITE WHEN I NEED TO

One More Electronic Device

My new Toshiba! *melted with love* Now there is a laptop for my creativity burst! Love it love it love it. Please anticipate more artwork from now on.

PEACE OUT!

That's it?

*Uh-hem* apologize for the absence here.

Expenses went sky-high this month with several workshops and jazz exam. Good god i am so broke! Can't wait for the day when all these spending turns into intangible personal improvement. =)

Was feeling a lil lost just now and thank god i went online because then i read Jason Mraz's latest blog - Word F (http://freshnessfactorfivethousand.blogspot.com/2011/02/wtf.html), quoting the first paragraph:

I wasn’t raised on the streets, but I’ve spent enough time in shadowy circles to acquire a taste for the F word. In songs like 10,000 Motherf_ckers,Collapsible Plans, and the most recent live addition You F_ckin’ Did It, the word f_uck finds its way into the melody, intending to mean both urgency and comedy, the latter comforting the former – like a dentist giving you laughing gas before the root canal.

Crack you up didn't he? Lolz. I have always appreciate humor as such...if only there's a true match in real life. Better yet if you can make the music a lil tongue-tight with the guitar.

Imma dream about my dreamboat now. Night peeps.

Age Appropriate This & That

Everyone wishes they'll live up to their age, reputation, expectation. I surely do too but hey i did something stupid again. I am so embarrassed i feel like i should change my identity card to indicate i am only age 13. Wait, 8 maybe.

I have to try harder, like way harder to set things right.

Must i fall into that well of pain again to find my way out? Is that the only way?

Am i too complicated for most you out there?

Now i have YOU at the back of my neck. Please remind me of the once passionate, curious, hopeful self. I do miss her.