Me. Me and Me

I wish there are 3 split images of identical me

Stephanie, Sam and...Siew pak Yeng

Stephanie works like a cow

Sam dance like a maniac

and

Siew Pak Yeng makes time for family and friends

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Stephanie drives the car

Sam choreograph dances

SPY cleans the room

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Stephanie uses the left brain

Sam uses the right brain

SPY follows the heart

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Stephanie communicates, understand, execute

Sam falls in love, empathize

SPY cooks him dinner, maybe dessert too

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Stephanie is all dresses and heals

Sam rock the kicks

SPY...wear any clean clothes she can find

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Stephanie solves tickets

Sam enjoys street photoshooting

SPY make healthy meals

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Stephanie compartmentalize

Sam cries

SPY throw away the tissues

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Stephanie went online to ensure the IDM team took care of the incorrect information

Sam gets into FB to see how many facebookers LIKE her pictures today

SPY will take a bath afterwards

No fucking way, 2010!?

It scares the crap out of me when i mouse over the bottom right corner of my desktop and it indicates 2010 - oh . my . god!

How can a year ends without me noticing and yet turned my world upside down and inside out?
Well i am pretty sure i didn't pass out on it
(kinda wish i did for the later of the year)
but but
i am turning 25 this year! Bloody 25 years-old!
Ok now the exclamation marks are making me dizzy, cut the drama
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I would create an UNLIKE button exclusively for year 2009
Press Ctrl + A and hit Delete
No matter how much i have learned from last year
I wouldn't go all hypocrite and say thanks or hug the rusted year
What? You're saying i am blaming it to the year? Screw you
I say what i want to say HERE - THIS IS MY SPACE MY WAY
I deserve to get insane once in a while to keep myself sane most of the time
I can curse all the way and still have a blast for year 2010!
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You stupid year 2009 i loathe the fact you made me start a whole new year brokenhearted
and persistently haunting me with your sadden memories
The meanest thing you've ever done is to let me be 24 where all mistakes must be handled with perfect sense and sorrows are supposed to left unspoken then compartmentalized
I wrote it all here my melancholy and when i read back it's as if you're rubbing them onto my face mocking me MY WEAKNESS
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Dust in my eyes
Hair on my face
but i am still throwing punches
You better return my confidence before i bite your head down
I swear on my LX3 i would do it!
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Hereby ending the madness
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I come undone, year 2010

Grown Up Christmas List

Do you remember me?
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies
Well, I'm all grown-up now
Can you still help somehow?
I'm not a child, but my heart still can dream
So here's my lifelong wish
My grown-up Christmas list
Not for myself, but for a world in need
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list
What is this illusion called the innocence of youth?
Maybe only in that blind belief can we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal our hearts
Every man would have a friend
That right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown-up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown-up Christmas list

Your left brain

So i hated it
to be in a battle where in my conscious mind i know i will never win
or to be reckless enough to pick a fight
invade a space that has an entirely different dimension
and terrified to bits cause it look all-so-familiar

am i going to torture the fugitive to get the desired answer?
the sad truth is i am speechless when the gun is sticking up my face
peace doesn't come easily
not without a war
enlighten me
how do you win a war
from the notorious left brain?

Eventually
We all get beheaded and reasoned out

Sunday

It has been long since i'm actually liking my sunday. Was a bit reluctant waking up in the morning since i was up chatting over the MSN until 3-ish. Cancelled my lunch with Wilson (sorry uncle) to get prepared for an event at Hard Rock. Wilson offered me the opportunity to become the video camera lady (^_^) for Ocean of Fire album launching at Hard Rock Cafe. Got there just in time and thrilled to see some familiar faces (Jefferey, Daniel, Lih Sha, Jasmine and Ruth). Penang is really this tiny bits of island where everyone knows everyone else. Lolz.

The cafe was filled with friends and family and i was told that my friend Kelvin, the lead guitarist is going to propose to his girlfriend at the lanuching. Sweet! The band did really great, i was never an instrumental music fan but the play got me captivated. Officially hooked. Perhaps watching life performances brought meanings into the musicale piece. Bought their old and new album for myself and an extra one for KS. He would love this i guess.

So towards the end Kelvin presented the last song and he invited Marion (girlfriend) to sit at the front table. Marion was already crying while he's with his last song. I was standing aside capturing all these with a smile on my face. Then he put down his guitar and make his way down the stage. Audiences that were part of this "conspiracy" started cheering and Kelvin kneel down on his knee. The "marry me" question was answered almost immediately by a shout of YES from Marion, lolz. Simple and touching. *Congratulations!*

What a meaningful afternoon =)

It was while i am driving down the winding road that i realize i haven't taken breakfast and lunch yet (if only two onion rings and a cup of cuppocino counts) but i gotta have to must watch the dragon ball show in Gurney! Bryan, Fion , BBoy and Doraemon are dressing up as the characters in dragonball and i'll not miss it! Lolz farny when they do the Nobody dance. After the show it was gathering at Grace's new crib for house warming. Finally it's dinner time i was tired and starving. Caught up in MSN chat and i must have been too tired, got upset over something you said. Pointless though, me against the left brain.
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I have a great day and it doesn't matter that i thought about the incident last night..

Not sensible

I am not making any sense
what am i thinking?
haha you tell me
i didn't realize i have thrown you a hard question
please don't crack your head stressing over it
maybe you should just ignore me :S
i am being riduculous
went to Borders this afternoon
standing in front of the poetry section for 20minutes
i do not know where to start
not looking for love poems defintely
something meaningful i guess
i went back with nothing
recommendation perhaps?
rushed back home to take charger earlier on
just so MSN can stay online
what does that mean?
well at least i know what does the poem means now
you(me) pessimist
everybody gets hurt

For you

I am proud of you my friend
You changed
It might have nothing to do with the incident
but it must have somehow affected you, or at least made you see something and learn from it
I am amazed
what a different outcome from the same situation
you would have laugh it off if you read this
but i am happy to meet the new you
the better you
ADD OIL aaaaaaaaaa
(me too!)