Trying too hard?

I love you.
They've always say you won't appreciate until you lost it. For those who had been through that know just what to do, but sometimes maybe have tried a lil' too hard. Tell me about it.

I had come clean to you about this before, but just not the whole story. I wouldn't want you to worry or...get annoyed. See? Last time i been out of relationship, i promised i will do anything to keep the next. It took me quite a while to get committed again, it's sure scary to want someone something this much. You always tell me to be myself. I just can't stop trying to please you..to smile a lil more, jokes a lil more, just be interesting a lil more. To be the one you would like, the one that you would keep. At the very same time, i feel so ashame that i am doing that. Everyime i am doing that i just stop myself from doing that. Aarrgghhh.

I'm sure the invinsible pressure is not there. But it's getting to me.

Now i'm feeling silly just to read what i just write. Ha.