Friday, February 26, 2010

I am sorry. Friendship is all i can offer for your kindness...

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Reading

I promise i will finish reading the new book i bought before i lost myself again in Borders. Oh wait, i think i should finish all the books i borrowed from Grace as well. Oh my god, where's the time? Whenever i feel slow and stupid i pick up my books. Checking through dictionary while reading is fun but only if i can remember all the vocabulary i came across. Sometimes i wrote them down, most of the time it's never revised the second time. *My bad*

Resign
Accepting something unpleasant without complaining

The only slot i manage to squeeze out of my tight schedule for reading is now, 4.41am to be exact. This is only possible because i am on noon-shift this week. Even so it is still causing me the extra coffee at the afternoon the day after. My manager is not going to like this, so as my pimples-prone face. Drats.
I need to know more to feel confident...sadly it usually applies only to the thing i have interest in. (Please let me know if self-discipline has anything to do with this.)

I skipped spring cleaning this year...*glance over laptop screen* ..books and bags scattered all around. Mum cleaned it up a bit before CNY and BEFORE CNY could come the bags and the books have found their way back on the floor, everywhere. *My bad again* I so trust eventually mum will burn them all, ever since she told me that when i was..13. =p
I need a shelf/shelves for my books...i will arrange them according to the size.

Since i am blogging guess there'll not be anymore reading after this...oh it's so late now..good morning penang.


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Mission

I pray for recovery
when prayers are not answered
i wonder if a mission to be ultimately alone is necessary
throw myself into the dark
eaten alive by fear
scratch the wall break my nails
and reborn
then relieve
never too much of a drama compares to what i feel now

Random

It will be too sad to live in fear for this short mortal life. Mind soul action inhibited from normal activities due to psychological issue. Ironic enough at the same time only our own will power can make a change to this. I am no good at this.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Random

Don't blog or write my diary as much lately, i hate to admit some of my feelings. By writing them down means i have to think it through and maybe come up with some conclusion. No not just yet.
So it's Valentine's day and i cried a little. I hope there is someone but the fact is i am not quite ready for it. Maybe they all know, hence i am alone today. Being snobbish(a lil) as a nature of a girl, i do hope at times like this there'll be admirer(s) doing their "thing". Lolz. Hopefully it wasn't ruin by the rumor of me having a boyfriend. wtf.

Chat for a lil with a friend through MSN today, i need someone to talk to and unfortunately my friend wasn't really showing any interest, perhaps is CNY. At the same time, an acquantance message me in FB, she wants to talk about love, her fairytale just come true and she is gonna do what is needed to sustain it. A lil frank to talk about this to a stranger but i realize all of us need an audience, or as Grace said, a witness to our life. I wish you luck babe, fly over there and get him. =)


I need to get myself some fairytale.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Night Market

Hey me love Friday.
Just came back from a night market behind Grace's apartment. Omg it extend all the way down the road and make a U-turn back from the other side. Something funny happened and i can't share it here, Hooi Min you know what i mean. LOLZ. I'm a sucker for handmade stuff and yes i bought them. Ahhh is a jinx. Snakcs from night market are usually deep-fried, not a big fan as i grow older. (me no like zits) Random items i can remember: RM10 crock shoes, stupid chilly sauce, CNY decos and a brown poodle.