I betrayed when i send that sms i sent. It is a decision without consideration. It's selfish and wrong. I am wrong. Life has been giving me much chances and it did me good when it gave me him. Now it's all gone because the trust has been betrayed. As much as i hate to know this, it will never be the same again. It might not even come back again. I know how tough it will be if i loose him, so as for him, but the damage is done. Forgiveness is not something i can demand for, even if i can, it will never be forgotten. If you can't forget you can't trust anymore. It's not something you do and regret and get over with. You live with it the rest of your life. My mistake is the biggest mocking to his life chanllenging all the principles that define him. How can i ruin what defines him?
I would do everything anything to get another chance which i don't deserve..without him, there'll not be any air in my lungs, sense in my thoughts..
I will never be the same, for i know what i have done and now what i will loose. Growing up is no longer an option.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Dreaming with a Broken Heart
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
-Forecast-
My forecast tells me that it's going to be a tough month ahead..uhm ok it's until the end of the year.
Work starts, dancing continues, maintaining relationship...money problem. *gulp* The first few months of salary will be donated to the "debt" fund...then will talk about savings, more savings and after all, i hope there's still penny left for vacation. The worries are getting to me. Oh i forgot to mention, i'll need to get my own car soon enough. Fair enough i've been driving my brother's car for over a year and a half now...time to have my own baby.
Things that i need to do, i got it.
Work starts, dancing continues, maintaining relationship...money problem. *gulp* The first few months of salary will be donated to the "debt" fund...then will talk about savings, more savings and after all, i hope there's still penny left for vacation. The worries are getting to me. Oh i forgot to mention, i'll need to get my own car soon enough. Fair enough i've been driving my brother's car for over a year and a half now...time to have my own baby.
Things that i need to do, i got it.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
V.O.I.D
A lil tired
A lil disappointed
A lil sad
Like i would never be good enough
It's not about my intention i just did it wrong
all the time?
not sure if i can keep it up with you
i will try my best
for better or worse
growing up..
A lil disappointed
A lil sad
Like i would never be good enough
It's not about my intention i just did it wrong
all the time?
not sure if i can keep it up with you
i will try my best
for better or worse
growing up..
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Random Update
Just came back from KL...tired...muscles pain..but worth it. I think i've learn quite a bit about different dance's basic, like raggae. I like raggae =) I like going to the gymnastic place too, i think i will learn how to do front flip in da future, one step at a time! I shall work hard on my "baby roll" first, lmao. Met some dancers with really cool shoes...i want one too...(maybe not just one) i actually took some pics on those shoes, maye i will upload it when i'm free.
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Now hanging at Kean's house waiting for him to come back....zzz. Playing restauran city and chatting with an ex-colleague, miss her. Hugs. Oh she just left to go mandi. I'm alone again! =(
Wait for my pictures about the cool shoes. ^_^
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Now hanging at Kean's house waiting for him to come back....zzz. Playing restauran city and chatting with an ex-colleague, miss her. Hugs. Oh she just left to go mandi. I'm alone again! =(
Wait for my pictures about the cool shoes. ^_^
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Lovely Day
What a b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l sunday. =) I love today what a wonderful day because i get to see him, yes, none other than my beloved boyfriend. *Hugs*
Pardon me if you have now vomited out your previous meal but it has been long since i get to spend more than 6 hours a day with him. Mainly because of our different working schedule. He works on the day time and i have dance training and classes on the night. Saturday is my turn taking care of the studio and my classes are from 11am-12pm and 4pm-5pm. Mostly if we could we'll meet up for dinner. Morever my performances usually land on the weekend hence sometimes i can hardly see him in a week. SOB!
Well not today. =) Although i have a performance at Eagle Point church but it was on the morning. Kean fetched me after that for lunch and then we went for a movie. (We haven't step foot in cinema for months!) Simply enjoy spending time together, just being with him. I love today!
Next week i will be going down to KL for around 4 days attending Urban Groove's dance workshop, gonna miss him badly. I hope we can catch up a lil' on Tuesday before i leave...*hugs* sigh
Pardon me if you have now vomited out your previous meal but it has been long since i get to spend more than 6 hours a day with him. Mainly because of our different working schedule. He works on the day time and i have dance training and classes on the night. Saturday is my turn taking care of the studio and my classes are from 11am-12pm and 4pm-5pm. Mostly if we could we'll meet up for dinner. Morever my performances usually land on the weekend hence sometimes i can hardly see him in a week. SOB!
Well not today. =) Although i have a performance at Eagle Point church but it was on the morning. Kean fetched me after that for lunch and then we went for a movie. (We haven't step foot in cinema for months!) Simply enjoy spending time together, just being with him. I love today!
Next week i will be going down to KL for around 4 days attending Urban Groove's dance workshop, gonna miss him badly. I hope we can catch up a lil' on Tuesday before i leave...*hugs* sigh
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