Fine.

Nope no big deal.

Nothing really.

I'm used to it and it's my fault anyway.

So i'm gonna suck it up.

This is going to add points to that misery mind of mine.

Running

I have this vivid memory from Project Dance in Philippines. Second day of the workshop we were all gathered for a morning prayer, and Cheryl Cutlip, the founder of Project Dance, in her most graceful movement, showed us a dance prayer. I have never see that before but what she said next left me with thoughts..plenty of them. In between turns and smiles she said, "I know some of you here are running....you have kept running but you find no answers..". The word "running" never occurs to me but suddenly it make so much sense - i have been running all this time. Perhaps i thought by putting my hands on everything i can avoid doing one thing, being miserable. Nope na-daa, it doesn't work.

Then the other day i received a sms from a friend, he was hit by an image of me while he is praying. He described in that vision i was very lonely when there was no friends around. How the f*** did he knows that? Or i have that bitter word imprinted on my forehead!? Lolz. Either way i'm screwed. Picture an lonely old lady running in her high-cut shoes, looking for answers she knows but won't accept. *Puke*

I need some out-of-the-world wisdom to move on, or simpler, a rebound?

Snap Snap Away

Wow, it has been that long since my last blog update. *Headdesk*

Well you may say many things have happened lately and none at the same time. Why? It's all about the same thing i have been doing for the pass year - work, dance, photography, eat and very little sleep. Trust me you wouldn't want me to break it down to you, it's too tedious. Oh i guess i can share some about my photography experience..

The focus lately was on portrait which it's really not something i've set eye on at the first place. Most of the time i tag along in portrait session organized by my friends (very sweet of them) and on some occasion we have our private session. To be honest i prefer the private session as it is where we can have our concepts and vision for the photograph. I like to discuss ideas about the shoots and what to wear, how to makeup with the model a day or two prior to the shoot. With that my photos show consistency and outstand from others.

I believe in law of attraction and it has always applied in my life. Now that i show my interest in photography so as people showing their love to my work. I am getting more and more offers to portrait session, weddings and events. So far i have not plan to earn big shots from it but a little bonus here and there helps...i'm a very broke adult. *cry*

As far as i know October is fully booked. Looking forward to the fashion show this weekend. Let's go!