SHIT

I feel like shit
Listening to Zee Avi's "Someone you used to know" and the tears just came out of nowhere every drops of them makes me ashamed
Don't have tissue in my cubicle it wasn't prepared for this occasion. I feel hopeless and sad sorta have this feeling that it's not coming back, he's not coming back.
I am still trying to work things out, being around, making nervous jokes, little talk....holding on to every little faith left in this guilty mind. Trying to get through, trying to penetrate your walls of principles, desperately seek for any sign of hope. I felt cold and numbness non-responding hugs but i ain't giving up.
I feel like shit but i ain't giving up.