Heroism in You

I don't need a hero to rescue me.

I seriously don't. I am well enough to take care of myself even though i might not have done a good job. If there is a pitfall i'm gonna take, yes let's do this because this is my life. My freaking life.

People bringing down the walls hoping they can rescue another Repunzel...well you have knocked on the wrong door. You would be a life savior if you approach as friend with advices and encouragement. Once you take ownership of the problem and the subject of the issue man you have crossed the line. There is never a set of rules that can solve all problems in the world, certainly not yours when you force it on me. I would very much like to go through this life experience everything it offers me, and fight my own wars.

Just want to make a statement for you heroes out there, with or without a cape.

Say Thank You

Almost the end of the year now. =) Other than feeling guilty over incomplete resolutions i had for beginning of the year, i want to check this off the list - deliver a simple thank you. (Took this picture just for you guys out there ^_^)

THANK YOU

MUM for preparing dinners all year long

BROTHER for being my brother

MELONEY for loving our family

BEST FRIENDS

(LC, YC, WL, KY, Dai Lou, Chao Lang, Kelvin, Jason..)

for all the great times(which i cherish the most) i have with you

GRACE for putting some sense to me when i need it

SEAN for the opportunity to learn

MELVIN for being the core of inspiration everytime you're here

JOEL for the hardcore foundations

VINZ for the best time in Phillipines

BYOKI for fulfilling my never-ending favors

STEVE for being there

EVA for helping the studio and us

WILLY & DORAEMON for all the funny and not so funny jokes

AMBER for working 24x7 to keep me cool

BOSS for kehpo-ing over my singlehood and being a great boss like you

HOOI MIN & WEN YEW for being a great new/good friend i have in my adult working life

KIM SOON for all year long supply of TVB series

PAUL for being the mastermind and dictionary

ELAINE & SELVI for always lending a helping hand

KUOK MING for constantly concern over my health

COLLEAGUES for making my working life a happy one

WILSON for being my friend from afar (ok not so far...just KL lol)

JEWEL for all you have inspired me

DC for everything in photography

KHAR LING & KAREN for inviting me to most of your photography sessions

MOOOK for being my best friend for years

If i do miss out anyone...you know i have you in my mind =)

Fine.

Nope no big deal.

Nothing really.

I'm used to it and it's my fault anyway.

So i'm gonna suck it up.

This is going to add points to that misery mind of mine.

Running

I have this vivid memory from Project Dance in Philippines. Second day of the workshop we were all gathered for a morning prayer, and Cheryl Cutlip, the founder of Project Dance, in her most graceful movement, showed us a dance prayer. I have never see that before but what she said next left me with thoughts..plenty of them. In between turns and smiles she said, "I know some of you here are running....you have kept running but you find no answers..". The word "running" never occurs to me but suddenly it make so much sense - i have been running all this time. Perhaps i thought by putting my hands on everything i can avoid doing one thing, being miserable. Nope na-daa, it doesn't work.

Then the other day i received a sms from a friend, he was hit by an image of me while he is praying. He described in that vision i was very lonely when there was no friends around. How the f*** did he knows that? Or i have that bitter word imprinted on my forehead!? Lolz. Either way i'm screwed. Picture an lonely old lady running in her high-cut shoes, looking for answers she knows but won't accept. *Puke*

I need some out-of-the-world wisdom to move on, or simpler, a rebound?

Snap Snap Away

Wow, it has been that long since my last blog update. *Headdesk*

Well you may say many things have happened lately and none at the same time. Why? It's all about the same thing i have been doing for the pass year - work, dance, photography, eat and very little sleep. Trust me you wouldn't want me to break it down to you, it's too tedious. Oh i guess i can share some about my photography experience..

The focus lately was on portrait which it's really not something i've set eye on at the first place. Most of the time i tag along in portrait session organized by my friends (very sweet of them) and on some occasion we have our private session. To be honest i prefer the private session as it is where we can have our concepts and vision for the photograph. I like to discuss ideas about the shoots and what to wear, how to makeup with the model a day or two prior to the shoot. With that my photos show consistency and outstand from others.

I believe in law of attraction and it has always applied in my life. Now that i show my interest in photography so as people showing their love to my work. I am getting more and more offers to portrait session, weddings and events. So far i have not plan to earn big shots from it but a little bonus here and there helps...i'm a very broke adult. *cry*

As far as i know October is fully booked. Looking forward to the fashion show this weekend. Let's go!

BITTER

I was coughing and had flu for the past few days due to the late night showers. As usual i wasn't paying any attention to it until it escalate into something serious. Monday i was coughing and sneezing non-stop in my cubicle and by evening i'm already a lil feverish. Drove my sick ass home and stuggled to get to studio. When i get off the car i picked up my phone wanted to sms someone/anyone to complains ("oh-loh" in hokkien) about it but drats, no credit. And also, i do not know who i should sms to. Seriously. So i went to Guardian, bought a pack of Panadol ActiveFast, break a tablet into half (kia-si) and swallow, together with my complains. Well, it has been this way for what i feel like a decade now. If there is an option this would be my last solution but...here i am..

我也要旅行

看着你的照片 揣测你的心情
都是雨天
我想你 你想她
怎么不是雨天
无论如何
照片超棒的！偶像 ^_^